I was just looking at how much I ate when I was dieting and it was like next to nothing. Straight up crazzzzyyy ish.

Like forreal.

Week 1 of this diet is now coming to an end.

I must admit that it has been difficult, mostly difficult on the weekends.

Seeing that I stay home or go out I’m just chilling so I’m always surrounded by food.

But I’ve yet to break my diet.

Plus, I’ve lost 9 pounds. Yay!

I just wanted to lose one more pound before tomorrow night. Because that would bring my first week to 10 pounds of weight loss.

Oh well, I’m still trying to lose 16 more pounds. [:

My parents have forced me to eat at times because I just am not hungry.

I’ve been running frequently and yesterday after running I threw up. :/ Never again will I run on a full stomach.

Losing weight feels amazing.

Dieting is tough. When there’s something, like a diet, keeping you from enjoying food certainly makes you crave more.

Tonight I faced with trepidation.. I was going to hang out with friends; The hostess’ mother is an amaaaazzzzinggg cook.

Dinner consisted of steak, stuffed chicken, loaded mashed potatoes and broccoli sprinkled with parmesean.

But I had to refuse the stuffing inside the chicken, the potatoes and the broccoli. I’m on a strict all protein diet and breaking it would disrupt the weight loss process.

But wait.. there’s more. There was desert. FML.

Strawberry shortcake: Homemade biscuits piled high with fresh strawberries, drizzled with the strawberry sauce and topped off with whiped cream.

Oh, and let’s not forget the milkshakes that were being concoted.

Alas, I wasn’t able to eat the food and decided to munch on ice quietly.

But I will admit, I was shocked that I was able to resist the temptation of all the food. I’m proud of myself. [:

Water. Water. Water.
Protein. Protein. Protein.

No carbs.

First day of the diet and I dropped a whopping 4 pounds :O

I drank over 100 ounces of water today. Which made me have to pee like fucking crazy. But it’s all good.

It does suck not having carbs or fats or KETCHUP! :(

But it’ll be worth it.
I’m al proud. [:

I can’t go to taco bell.
I’m on a no carb diet!!

^^^ that’s literally me starting tomorrow.

If anyone asks me to go to Taco Bell I’ll flip the fuck out.

Leads to weekday purging.

I feel so fat now.

I had 2 donuts this morning, with an iced coffee. I’m so weak.

I got so mad at myself, so I decided to starve for the rest of the day.

I got home and went into beast workout mode.

I’m very happy with myself [:
If only I can keep it up.

Let me be frank - I’m fat.

No, not morbidly obese, but I have the extra poundage. I need to lose some weight, no one is attracted to a chubbster. Natural born looks don’t cut it anymore, you gotta have the body to match.

Some days I’m in a “f*ck it” mood. I eat like a gluttousness fool. Don’t sweat a drop and lounge around all lazy.

I lack determination, motivation, and will power.

I need to be able to say I’m gonna lose X number of pounds and actually do it.

I need to be motivated to get of my fat ass and exercise.

I need to be able to have the strength to say no to that bagel, doughnut, extra serving.

Surprisingly, I did work out today. It wasn’t anything tremdous but it’s a start.

I can’t stop letting myself down.

Starting now:

• I will exercise every day.
• I will drink solely water.
• I will resist the urges of my gluttonous mind.

Usually, I would say something like, “Wish me luck!”, but Luck isn’t going to suffice this time around.